I paint with lovely colors.

The Lens

2009-06-14T04:27:00.000-07:00

Hee-hee. I'm hooked on amateur-ish photography just the week before school. :)
I hope that I would improve. :)
I want to have an SLR CAMERA!!!!!! ^____^
Anyway, guys, you can check my photos here.
Please do comment your insights on my photography here on Blogspot. :)
Thank you! ^^

Grab the Opportunities.

2009-06-12T03:10:00.000-07:00

Medyo naiinis naman ako sa sarili ko.
Pano may mga opportunities sakin sa school pero ni isang hakbang wala akong ginawa para hablutin ang mga tsansang yun.
Hay nako..

* UNA: May talent naman ako sa drawing, so pwede akong Cartoonist sa VOX.
*PANGALAWA: May talent ako sa writing, so pwede akong writer sa VOX.
*PANGATLO: May talent(?) ako sa phot0graphy, so pwede akong photojourn sa VOX.
*PANG-APAT: May talent ako sa sports, so pwede akong mag-varsity.
*PANLIMA: Pwede naman akong mag-SCC dahil matataas naman grades ko,pasado sa requirements.

Pero hindi ko pinapansin ang mga oportunidad na yun.
Haaaaaaaaaay buhay.

On melancholy.

2009-06-02T19:48:00.000-07:00

Some other nights I tend to be lost
and gripped by a sudden intense sadness.
Whenever I'm praying on those nights,
I surrender.
I cannot help but give in to that abyss
of subtle emotions flowing through me.
In those nights,
I am being awakened.
Like a bomb exploding when the fire had swallowed
the long rope of patience..
..and I cry.

Radical emotions are being released.
Realizations are slapping me harshly..
..making me lose my physical and mental equilibrium,
and tears uncontrollably pours down from my eyes.

I really can't explain why this happen.
I myself, is trying to figure out this perplexing puzzle's
real picture.

But I do know what triggers this..
..as I said, realizations.
Realizations that I merely ignore when I'm
in my usual self, doing what I want and barely
listening and understanding what the people
around me are saying.

I feel heavy..
It's as if a swirling mass of imbroglio
is inside my system full of realizations:
continual faults,
undone roles,
misdeed duties,
unending grief,
real feelings..
..I realize them during those nights.
----------------------------

Am I bitter?
Is it a good thing or a bad thing? (0n crying)

----------------------------

P.S. I'm not saying that my life's pure sadness,though. It's just that, I think the intense sadness
that I've felt and kept all these years, are just being burst out just now.
Sigh.

Molds are forming

2009-04-28T21:17:00.000-07:00

Okay so tinatamad na 'kong mag-update ng blog ko. Sa totoo lang, wala naman akong productive na ginagawa ngayong summer eh-- xete, malapit na mag-May..enrollment nanaman;
At tignan mo, wala pa 'kong na sa-summer class man lang! Tapos, di man lang ako makapagsulat sa blog na ito!

Ang ironic nga eh, gutso kong gumalaw pero tinatamad ako, ayos.

Uh..ang plano ko nga pala ngayong summer (na nakalimutan ko nitong mga nakaraan at ngayon ko lang ulit naalala) ay mag-aral magsulat gamit ang Speedball.
Mag-summer din nga pala ng Karate (na tinatamad akong gawin..sabi sa'yo eh),
at-- mag- summer art workshop (na kasamaang palad ay wala ata dito sa Earth..este, wala malapit dito sa bahay namin).

Bakit ganito naging kahantungan ng bakasyon ko??!
Sana nga nasa Baguio nalang ako o sa lugar na makakapag-enjoy, maliban dito sa napaka tahimik na tahanan namin na routinary ko na ang nood-kain-surf-telebabad-nood-kain-tulog.

Haaaaaaaaaaaaaay grabe..
gusto kong gumala!! Hoy Kristelle!! Trinoma naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

Ikaw reader, so far kamusta naman ang bakasyon mo?

the end is just the beginning

2009-03-22T06:00:00.000-07:00

So yesterday was the last day of the school year; It still haven't occured to me at that time because it is so much euphoric to be with the Margaret people gathered in the Tablante's living room having a movie marathon. :)

But today, I already felt the big slap of melancholy on my face.

I can say that in the span of 10 months--- I was still craving for further time with them.

Kakamiss.

Thank you very much, Margaret.

(to be continued...)

...

2009-03-07T22:44:00.000-08:00

Whoa..so my last post was....last February 20?? that was a month ago.

So as I've said on my last post: I will update as soon as my problem is solved, right?
but that's broken now. HAHAHA
I'm tooooooooo lazy to update this blog, seriously. :
sorry about that.

Well actually, i WAS planning on deleting this blogspot--but Kristelle hampered me.
So what the hell.. i decided not to do so.

anyhows, I'll ponder if I would still write something here........

au revoir for now.

so sorry

2009-02-20T22:13:00.000-08:00

Please pardon me.
I haven`t updated for weeks.

Please bear with me.
I just need to resolve the BIG problem I have in the time being--
that deprives me of urge to write anything here for the moment.

Will be back as soon as my life`s been pulled together again in its perfect shape. =D

Intramurals `09: DAY 3

2009-02-11T02:54:00.000-08:00

This day`s fine. No game for the Volleyball girls of our team. Won the volleyball boys versus St. Albert. :)
Sigh.. nagtatampo ko ngayon. (ang arte ko! Whatever!) gara kasi eh, absent. :I

We just played Volleyball [again, for 2 consecutive days] and kill ourselves with body aches.
XEEEEEEET! galing ng boys sa volleyball kanina! crush ko si Jeric sa court. XET. gwapo nya kapag naglalaro. XD

So obviously to me, kapag absent `yung talagang crush ko eh tska naman naglalaro `tong si Jeric nagiging crush ko tuloy. Garaaaaa~ Kung `di ko lang mahal `yun (yung absent) pinagpalit ko na `yun kay Jeric! WAHAHAHA! XD
(tae joke lang `yung "ipagpapalit" thing. Mahal ko nga eh.. bakit ko ipagpapalit?? :P)

Anyhows, our team will have a game tomorrow, second game of the day. Volleyball girls.
XEEET. WE need to do good!!!!! *crossing fingers* WE need motivation! (sana absent nalang "sya" bukas, o kaya wag nalang manood..ma pe-pressure ako putekk~)

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!! *tumitili*

Intramurals `09: DAY 2

2009-02-10T01:04:00.000-08:00

Okay so our section didn't have any games today. So we like, killed the time watching other games up and down the Gymnasium and the Roofdeck, and played ever-so-loved Volleyball. :P

Oh yeah, something happened that almost made me faint this morning. HAHA! Really, I still couldn't believe it had befallen upon me. XD ♥
But yet--- I really think that euphoria is just a short walk-in-the-park kind of way, coz that happiness didn't last long-- my friend did something stupid this morning that made me kind of whine; Ironically though, that stupid damn thing occured even before that overwhelmingly happy incident took place (it kinda has a link dude.) so, that is really ironic. Hmmm.. I bet you couldn`t decipher this? i intended to make it vague. ;)

`Till next post. ü (couln't squeeze anything further more. :P)

au revoir!♥ ^_^

Intramurals '09: DAY 1

2009-02-09T01:52:00.000-08:00

Yes! Finally-- the much-awaited league has come! WAHAHA.
We were all excited about this event of course there are no homework stuff to get busy about; And also the ball games to be held. Ah, triumph-- come to St. Margaret. >:)
Speaking of triumph, our team won 2 consecutive games against St. Louis-- basketball boys & volleyball girls. :D
But it`s kinda weird, though-- coz I`m not that overwhelmingly happy when it absorbed in me that we won in the volleyball game. Tsk. weird-- but I`m happy, still. :P

Unfortunately, my whole body still aches-- DARN! I dunno why it is already 2 1/2 days of me suffering from this--
i hate it. :I But still I`m lucky, coz I was able to play and partake in our game. :)

On dismissal, the Margaret people (jose,geff,jr,paulo,kha,berniece,oswald,me) played [STILL] volleyball in the church's plaza. hihi; Can`t get enough of playing, eh? :P

`Till next post.ü

au revoir!♥ ^_^

be thankful for ordinary days. :)

2009-02-07T02:17:00.000-08:00

This day`s quite ordinary--well, in some ways `coz I just spent most of it on playing volleyball and watching the cheerdancers. :)) but yet-- IT WAS FUN! Ü
So i was off at 8am to Berniece`s place as rendezvous for our volleyball practice; At first decision, we should be playing at Oreta Sports Complex but how unfortunate, there are other Jamers occupying the place-- so we ended up playing at the streets somewhere near the residence, and then moved to a basketball court to play big-time. HAHA! T`was so much fun. really. ^_^
And after playing, we went straight ahead to Jollibee and devour our lunch. Soo hungry. XD
After that, we also went to school for the others to practice their cheerdance this coming Intramurals. (take note: some of US do not have any permits but luckily, there`s Mr. Odulio to get us through in. =D thanks sir.)
And the sophomores were damn good!!!! hell yeah. :) and of course, I myself is not included in the dancers but I quite have the adrenaline to dance with them and cheeeer. "Freshmen, Juniors, Seniors: LOOOOSEEERS!" yeah! XD
Well of course again-- I cannot help it but play volleyball with other margaret people. Play play play. aaah! my hands are shaking! I need to play! The result? i`m dirty, stinky, oily. EWWWW~~ (but no more now. XD) And I went home @ 5:30pm. hihi

Anyways, I wish the Sophomores a heap of Goodluck!!! ^^ Do your best guys!!!! :D

and that`s my day. :) till next post. ü

au revoir!♥ ^_^

ah, the drama-- it never ends.

2009-02-06T03:59:00.000-08:00

Or so in my life at the time being. Well, I`m not saying that all I do in my life is sob and moan because of the endless stupid negativity lurking inside my system; it`s just that.. I felt like there lots of things I hated to have occured, I hated to have done, I hated to have happened to me-- and so, the result: i whine.

A large part of me is conquered by dramatized auras-- as you can see obviously being read by your very eyes.

And so the drama hits me again. Right now. I can`t hold back. I`m too pathetic. hah!

nakakapanghinayang na ewan..

2009-01-29T16:11:00.000-08:00

Homaygash.! Muntik na pala kong ma-honor. Lintek. :I
kasi naman `yung Speech at Algebra na yan hinila ako pababa. :I
hay nako..eto nalang ang huling pagkakataon ko-- ang Fourth Quarter.
Kailangang bumawi!!!!
*crossing fingers*

Third Quarter Report Card:

Religion II- 92

Homeroom II- 94

English II- 90

Filipino- 86

Mathematics- 80

Biology- 90

MAKABAYAN- 91

Social Studies II- 93

T.L.E. II- 93

MAPEH II- 87

Values Education- 91

Speech- 81

ECCA- 92

Conduct- 91

Religion- consistent.XD; Homeroom- mula 90; English- bumaba..mula 91; Filipino- tumaas..mula 84.yeah!; Math- bumaba..mula 81; Biology- TUMAAS NG BONGGANG-BONGGA! mula 80!!!!yeah xD; Social- tumaas..mula 92; TLE- tumaas..mula 92; MAPEH- consistent.XD; Values Ed.- actually wla naman akong pakialam dito eh.JUK. xD; Speech- bumaba!! eto nga ung pahirap bwiset..mula 84!!; ECCA- tumaas..mula 92.

Tapos hindi pa nga pala ako Conduct kasi may special late ako. daaammiiit.! :I

para sa mga guro ng SJA [malabon] =D

2009-01-28T01:45:00.000-08:00

(Para sa mga guro-- ngayong Teacher's Day.ü)

Kahit na nasa lebel pa lamang kami ng paglilikom ng kaalaman sa aming mga murang isipan, pinagbubutihan pa rin ninyong maturuan kami ng mga dapat naming matutunan at mga aral na nagsisilbing gabay sa mga daang aming tatahakin sa hinaharap.

Kung may mga pagkakataong hindi namin nagagawa kung anuman ang inyong inaasahan na makita saamin, may mga sarili naman po kaming paraan ng paggawa ng mga bagay-bagay;
Pero.. humihingi na rin po ako ng tawad kung may nagawa man kaming mga estudyante na ikinabigo ninyo o ikinagalit ninyo.

Masasabi kong ang mga guro talaga dito ay mga mabubuting ehemplo sa mga estudyanteng tulad namin
na marahil ay muwang pa nga sa mga ibang bagay na alam na alam n`yo na.
Impluwensya din kayo sa amin na sa isang punto, maging katulad ninyo na nagbabahagi ng malaki sa mga tao;

Hindi kayo nagpapa-alipin sa kung anuman ang nakalathala sa mga aklat-- bagkus, inyong ipinaliliwanag ang bawat paksa at iminumulat kami sa katotohanan at nagiiwan sa amin ng mga Words of Wisdom. (pasensya na, `di ko alam ang tagalog n`yan. :P)

Maraming salamat po sa mga ibinahagi/ibinabagahi ninyo sa aming mga estudyante.!

(**NOTE: Special thanks sa mga teacher ko sa Second Year at nung First Year.Ü)

au revoir!♥^_^

Twist of Events

2009-01-23T17:35:00.000-08:00

A week ago, I was in a state of pure worry;
Four days ago, I was in a state of adjustment;
A day ago, I was in a state of pure euphoria;

But then...

A while ago, I was in a state of shame and stupidity.
What had befallen upon me?
This day I don`t even want to remember.
Happiness is just a short time these few days of my life...*sigh*
My life`s just too complicated to handle.

Okay, i better stop this now-- I`m getting too dramatic.

Wizards vs. Vampires?

2009-01-18T02:45:00.000-08:00

(**Note: due to insistent Charrie Pablo`s demand, i made this post.ü)

"Wingardium leviosa!"

"When you can live forever, what do you live for?"

As we all know, the Twilight saga had caught the eyes of the readers last 2006; then last November 2008 it finally turned into a film in the big screen. Thus, making it even more addictive to tons of fans. The vampire Edward Cullen bit them apparently.

On the other hand, the Harry Potter movie series that is shown annually for 5 years now-- is also a sticky glue that is hard to remove. Harry Potter truly put wizard fanatics into his spell.

Hence, the two paperback-turned-film is both in the cravings of movie buffs.

But the question is: who is more predominant?

It depends on you, reader(s), in your own point of view. For me I`m quite neutral, though. :)
In my vantage point, both of them have their own distinct identity in terms of the story, theme, genre.
But then again, it can`t be helped to ask which is better, right? ü

au revoir!♥ ^_^

this I can`t stand.

2009-01-16T21:31:00.000-08:00

I cannot take this any further. It`s just that.. my mind`s all stuffed with freaking things unnecessary at the moment. But then again, this I cannot control, seriously. I tried to avoid thinking about these-- but it seems that my entire body system impedes me to do so. *sigh*.. if this goes beyond normal limit,, I can`t predict what will happen next.

If only I can slow down..

" Slow down.. how the hours and days goes by.. "

The silent attacker of my human body-- Adrenaline. Although it doesn`t give me physical hyper-activity,, it quite affects my brain [and my heart?]. Some instances I`m lost in the realm of reverie.. gone in the reality. Couldn`t I just wait?

" Naiinip, nasasabik, kasing bilis ng isang iglap mahahanap sa may ulap.. nagtatanong, nagtataka.. nakatingala, nakatulala pero sabi mo.... "

Just what is happening to me..? Okay, I know only I, myself can answer that query.

*Sigh*

au revoir!♥ ^_^ (this is so awkward to put at the end..but then again, i can`t help it.. this is my signature remark)

Repleksyon ng lipunang may hinagpis

2009-01-15T04:07:00.000-08:00

(* Yakapin ang sariling wika-- nagpapakamakata ako ngayon. ü)

Padre de Pamilya

Sadyang nakamumulat ng mga muwang na isipan ang obra na pelikulang ito--sa mga hindi pa lubusang maalam na utak, na kasalukyang nasa saamin pa.
Isinisiwalat nito ang mga katiwalian ma pa gobyerno man o ma pa lipunan.
Sinasakop na nito ang lahat ng anggulo ng mga aspeto sa nasyon.
`Tila nga repleksyon ng kasalukuyang panahon sa bansang sinilangan.
`Di tulad ng ibang pelikula, ipinakikita nito ang mga pagkakamaling lantad na sa mga mata naming mga kabataan-- na dapat nga namang ituwid.
Datapwat, sa katapusan ng palabas, nagiiwan ito ng mga katanungan sa aming mga isipan na marahil kami na ang bahalang alamin ang kasagutan.

au revoir!♥ ^_^

L-O-V-E: beyond being a mere abstract noun

2009-01-11T02:48:00.000-08:00

"How on earth are you going to explain in terms of Chemistry
and Physics so important a biological phenomenon as first love?"
Tama nga naman, hindi maipaliliwanag ng Agham ang ganitong damdamin. Miski ako nga, ni hindi ko alam ang kahulugan ng napaka talinghagang apat-na-letrang salitang `yan. Paulit-ulit itong umiikot sa aking mausisang isipan at mas lalo pa akong nahihikayat malaman ang sagot.
May mga sangguni naman akong masasabi kong "eksperto" na sa ganyan. eto naman ang sagot nilang dalawa:
"sa`kin kasi kapag `yung..hinahanap-hanap mo. `Yun." "lagi mo s`yang iniisip."
Bigla naman akong napatanong sa sarili ko: "na-inlove na nga ba `ko?" Hanggang ngayon `di ko pa rin alam ang kasagutan. Lalo lang atang gumulo ang utak ko. HAHA

nakakatamad

2009-01-10T12:37:00.000-08:00

"Kapag maraming ginagawa, NAKAKATAMAD; kapag walang ginagawa,
NAKAKATAMAD pa din, [pero] mas masarap tamarin sa walang ginagawa."
-- I thereforre quote Charrie Pablo in saying this thing; it is her status message at the very moment.
Tag-lish muna. nakakatamad mag fluent Tagalog or English eh. Basta, nakakatamad gumawa ngyon ng mga research-research stuff sa Speech!! weekend ngyon..dapat total pahinga. Bkit kc nauso pa ang homework. (gnun eh) Nakakatamad talaga ngayon. Pero next week super dami nang activities.. kaya nga dapat PAHINGA. PAHINGA. Yun lamang. wala na `kong ibang masabi. :)
(**NOTE: napakawalang kwenta ng post na ito. Please bear with me. ü)
au revoir!♥ ^_^

This is such a long week.

2009-01-09T02:22:00.000-08:00

Really, I feel like this week have been too long for me. I have a partial reason for this--of which I won't mention (it's apparently personal); and also because the approach of the lessons are kinda boring (so far, I haven't absorbed anything in my Biology class though we had an experiment this afternoon).

Ironically, this week is also stressful. With tons of Biology requirements we need to fiinish and submit UNTIL last Wednesday.. all of us were totally panicking. HAHAHA

Anyhows, this day's quite exciting, though. :D

We had the Jones cup (or whatever the name is) this afternoon with the moderators partaking in a volleyball competition. (I'm sorry to say this, but It felt good to insult some of the teachers incapable of playing the ball game--though they were included in the team. XD)
The Ja-ne people were bundled in watching the game.! YAY! after a long time. ^^ (only some of us, though--but still.)
Yeye, Carisse, Kristelle, and I went to Jollibee after class. Indulged in eating sundae and spaghetti (yeye) while spilling out our true confessions about our crushes. (flaunting~ HAHAHA.) btw, we did the "pinky promise" (yeah, quite cheesy) to seal our secrets and keep them down low; (I added, "kapag ito na-break `di na tayo magkakaibigan ah. pangako yan.") xD

-- and that's all I could squeeze out for now. :D :D

au revoir!♥ ^_^

Alibi XD

2009-01-08T01:55:00.001-08:00

A foolish alibi: I haven't updated since the last week. Sorry, I was just busy with tons of school work! (yeah right. =P)

I promise I'll update for another blog post tomorrow when I get home. :)

au revoir!♥ ^_^

dapat may ginagawa akong iba..

2009-01-02T08:33:00.000-08:00

ikaw ay kasalukuyang nagbabasa ng blog entry ng isang tamad na estudyante. Sa ginta ng kaabalahan at pagiging praning sa pagsasagot at paghahanap ng mga sagot sa malawak na internet para sa kanyang Biology na asignatura, eto s'ya ngayon at nagsusulat tungkol sa kung ano man ang dapat n'yang ginagawa sa kasalukuyang oras.

Panira nga naman ang mga takdang-aralin na 'yan. Bakasyon na bakasyon eh. Hindi ba dapat tuluyan lamang nagpapakasarap ang mga estudyante dahil 5 beses isang linggo at 10 oras sa isang araw na pinapagod ang aming mga utak sa pagbubukal ng mga aralin sa eskuwelahan?
Hindi ba tama naman ako sa katwiran ko?

Hay nako..

Sige na, papanindigan ko na ang pagsusunog ng kilay sa Biology.

Hanggang sa susunod na blog post.

au revoir!♥ ^_^

Welcome 2009: Old habits, begone!

2009-01-01T15:30:00.000-08:00

How's your New Year's day? I mean, the countdown before eating Media Noche?
Well, if you will ask me, I'm a bit disappointed; But I'm not saying that I didn't enjoy that. To elaborate more, here are the good and the bad points:

BAD

less fireworks. (regardless of the rain, I don't know what had befallen into this neighbourhood.)
it's raining. (oh yeah, it impeded some fireworks display, I guess. They only went out into the sky when it was 10min. before 12 since the rain's slowing down then.)
brownout. (Yes! nag-brownout ng bonggang-bongga dito sa lugar namin. Fortunately, we have several candles in the house so we lit some of them & placed them onto the center of the table. Gosh, it's freakin' pitch-black outside; But still, the people are not hampered to crack some noise in the dark.)

GOOD

there are still fireworks. (At least. But last year's better, really.)
it's raining. (regardless of the less fireworks-- I think that kind of rain represents shower of blessings, right? okay whatev.)
scrumptious food! (yum. :) Media Noche-in-candlight? Oh yeeah!! XD)

Okay, moving on....

Do you guys have your own New Year's Resolutions? I really don't get the point of doing that list if it cannot be adhered. I mean, we can do a New Year's Resolution(s) list and include things that we CAN do-- not just jot things that we WISH we could. You get what I mean?

Okay, honestly, I said I won't do this list once and for all-- I said it will be thereof created along the way of this year. But then, something within me actually motivated me to make it firstly; Well, of course, standing up on what I've said on the first paragraph of this topic, I only included the things that I am capable of attaining/doing.

NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS FOR 2009:

#1: Study harder-er!!! ( I need to pull my grades in Math and Biology higher! darn.)

#2: Be nicer. ( Oh yes, some people say I'm maldita daw-- so not true. They totally got the wrong impression; Need to look even nicer.)

#3: Be more polite.

#4: Avoid swearing so often!! (I just said "avoid..so often"; I did not say "quit" since I apparently can't.)

(**Note: I don't really think #4 should be included-- that's because it might not be adhered later on. But still, I opted to include it because it can remind me of that resolution of mine.)

Well, good luck to me, and to all of you-- wishing you a blissful and successful 2009!

au revoir!♥ ^_^

hello

2009-01-01T13:30:00.000-08:00

For those who know me, you might be surprised that I actually have a piece of crap here(sorry about the word). Well, it is actually the fault of one of my friends whose name I won't mention here-- she blackmailed me (well,not a REAL blackmail of course that she will kill me or torture me or whatever). Oh yeah, she goes like: "Gumawa ka na kasi ng blog! Sige ka, ako gagawa ng sa'yo tapos kunware ikaw nagba-blog, puro si *toot* 'yung laman. Ü" okay, so because of my vulnerability, I gave in to that stupid "blackmail".

(**note: if you're wondering what is "*toot*", it's actually a HE. I would not dare to mention the name 'cause one of HIS blood relative is also a blogger here so he/she might see his name--that is too embarassing to happen.)

Anyhows, I am doing this just for fun of it. I actually don't expect this to last for at least a year! hah! you're kidding me if It would be. Oh, also, I would like to customize my blog like,right now? but I can't because the clicking and editing are driving me nuts (hey, a helping hand will do!).

One more thing: I will not update that much since I can't squeeze anything journalistic in my brain most of the time.

That's all for now!!!

au revoir!♥ ^_^